Lost and Scared ROW80 Check In

An Around the Words in 80 days check in (ROW80)

When it come to my novel in progress, I feel a mix of emotions.

First I feel lost. Where in the world am I going with this plot? I have no idea I've always been a  panster when it came to writing. I have wrote outlines and characters charts and when I started writing I never use any of the information I outlined it's goes out the window so I stopped planning and just start writing.  I will come up with an ending. It's float into my head while I write. That the only "planning" I'll stick with.




Second I'm scared. Scared to write for some reason.

I'm excited I know know this is the best thing I've written so far, and the best story idea I've come up with. Note the best for me, not sure it's a wonderful book it's a first draft but it could be great. This may be another reason I'm scared.

I really need to write!
Does anyone else feel this way?

~Annie

A Book I WANTED day 15 OctPoWriMo

Just One Year By Gayle Forman
Picture from Goodreads 

The writing prompt today is writing a poem inspired by a piece of News, well I saw that a book I wanted to read came out today.  My poem about a book....laugh. Enjoy. 

A Book I WANTED

A book I WANTED to read came out today.

Saw the announcement on Facebook.

Even had a reminder on my smart phone,

that I don't remember putting there.

I WANTED to read this book!

It's like a reminder of a crush I once had...

It's a sequel, really a parallel story to another novel.

Hmmm... like falling in love

First novel about a year in a girl's point of view.

Like finding joy and happiness with someone and then it's GONE.

This book, the second book about the boy's point of view.

I WANTED to know what happened, his thoughts, his actions in that make believe year.

The wait....full of  heartache.

If I sit here and think about the story I'll make that feeling come back.

Sigh.....

Ok.... I want to read that book, so do I rush to the bookstore?  

By Annie 

The book I'm talking about is Just One Year by Gayle Forman, its the sequel to Just One Day. If you haven't read it yet and love YA novels I highly recommend this book.  I hope Just One Year is just as good!

Lost in Noise Day 14 OctPoWriMo

The Writing Prompt for the today is to write a poem about silence. To look at an object and write about the silence around you.  But I wrote the first thing that popped into my head at the world silence.

Lost in Noise

You would think I was lost in a world of silence,

but I lost in a world of noise. The noise of the world.

The noise you hear every day and tune out.

In the noise I don't hear and the noise I hear

better then the sound I want to hear.

I want to hear your voice but instead

I hear the deep hum of the world as it buzz all around us.

So I gave up I'm sorry I gave up, but I still want to hear your voice.

by Annie

Come join the writing poetry challenge at OctPoWriMo 2013 

I lost 1/2 pound

First week of ROW80 check in is over. Write everyday for 80 days writing challenge.
I wrote a scene yesterday, and it hit me I know what my heroine is feeling but what does she want? What's her desire? What's her goal? I know her inner conflict but what am rooting for her to achieve? Because I know what the hero want and how my heroine is reacting to his dicions toward that goal, scenes for to achieve the hero's goal are going through my head. But that only half the story.
I think if I knew what my heroine want then writing my daily goal would come easier.

Write everyday
I think I wrote two days out of five so far. 

Post a poem everyday.
I think I posted two poems.

Exercise three days a week.
I make it to the gym three times this week and started a new class.

Lose five pounds.
1/2 out of 5 pounds.

Goals for this week:
Write everyday.
Write a poem everyday and post on here on my blog.
Lose 4 1/2 pounds.
Click here to find out more about ROW80 

Relate More to Beast then Beauty Day 12 OctPoWriMo

Don't remember where this picture came from but it's not mine and this is 

Disney's Belle (Beauty)

Today's poetry writing prompt is about shadows. While we could write about shadows, the prompt more about writing about our shadow side. Our non-virtues, hate, greed, lust, ect.

"Relate More to Beast then Beauty"

I love the tale of Beauty and the Beast

Relate more to Beast then Beauty

For who could love me?

Love me? I didn't even love me.

Thought they hated me,

then thought they thought me not worth it.

Related more to Beast then Beauty.

Pain in chest - empty, hollow, lost,

Knives and scissors, pointy, sharp.

But something stopped me.

For who could love me?

My family loved me.

Every single one loves me.

Told me God saved me.

Death had his chances.

Six times before age six weeks,

but he lost his chances.

God saved me.

God is the one who loves me.

Gave me a chance, not Death.

Saved me (gave me life) for a reason.

Love me? I love me.

No more self hate digging a hole in me.

Still hate knives and scissors.

Took me years to get here,

but still not there

the question changed.

For what man would love me?

If I like a man - a crush.

I'll think of every reason for him to not.

I'm boring, life not exciting, living at home.

He's not going to understand, or like me back.

He's want sex, and dump you - silly child of God.

You have a hearing lost,

as you stubble over words, do you want to explain why?

Why bother.

Relate more to Beast then Beauty

I am beautiful, Beast still there.

This is my shadow mix my light with my darkness.  

By Annie

This poem really explain why the story I'm writing right now is basic on Beauty and the Beast. I always wanted to write a story basic on this fairy tale.  But this is the first time I've felt I've a good story idea.

~Annie

P.S. I posted the wrong day number on my post yesterday. it was day 11 not 10 lol. 

Sounds of Her Life Day 10 OctPoWriMo

this picture doesn't belong to me
check out her website here

She sits on her deck.

In the silence come

the hard crackling creakling of cricketers

Shoooommmm of a semi truck on the highway.

the zoom zooom zooooooooom of a motorcycle on the road in front of her house.

the soft tap tap as she typed on her laptop.

woof, woof say the dogs at something in the backyard.

In her life these sound stayed the same,

but her life changed and changed as she grew up in this house. 

Write, Right? Day 9 OctPoWriMo

Write, Right?
Write, I need to Write,
Right Now.
Write
One word,
One sentence,
One paragraph,
One page,
Write something!

by Annie

If you like to join the OctPoWriMo poetry writing challenge click this link.

Row80 Q4 First Check In 2013

Row80 Q4 First Check In 2013

Monday:

Writing:

            

            I kept telling myself You need to write, it's the first day of Around the Words in 80 days and you need to write! Well I felt a mental block or something.  It's keep saying what are you going to write. Do you have a plan.  No I didn't have a plan.  But all I had to do was write something.  That my writing goal for right now, write something.

            Well I decided I need to read something. That my writer's mind need to cut off and I needed to turn on the fun reader's mind. Need to eat some words, put some words in maybe the words would flow onto the blank screen of the computer. I read two chapters, wanted to read more but like I said I needed to write.  I decided at the gym that a character that I struggled to give a name, would be named Wanda. (you can believe a bookworm, fairy tale loving teen could be named Wanda, right?) I decided to write the introduction for this character.  I wrote 57 words of her part of the story. (She's a secondary character.)

Healthy Living:

            

            At the gym I decided I want to try out a class.  I noticed that was a dancing class going on in the "classroom" of the gym.  I thought maybe I'll try that class next time.  So I asked the guy at the desk what class was going on and that I would like to try a class. Turn out that there was another class next, called Body Flow.  I talked to the girl teaching the class she said it's like a yoga but without the UMMM.

            I tried it.  My balance not great and my flexibility could use some work but it was fun.  I need something else to do.  The treadmill was getting boring.  My gym just started offering more exercise classes. Only problem is the membership fee is more then what I'm paying right now.  They trying to get more people to join or pick the higher fee so they offering the classes with on extra cost this month.  The good news is that mama said she'll pay the different if I really want to take the class.  Yay, Thank you Mama! So I'm closer to my first goal of losing 5 pounds and my bigger goal of being long and lean!

            Oh but the plan to not eat cookies at Cookies and Compline - failed.

Tuesday:

            

            We went gourd hunting. I want to paint a pumpkin and a ghost on a gourd. Also I thought the young girl I'm taking care of 2 days a week would like to paint one too.

Writing:

            

           I didn't write a word not even a poem.  I found all kind of other stuff to do that I somehow can't remember what they are now.  

Healthy Living:

            I didn't eat any carbs for breakfast or lunch.  I had spaghetti for supper but I'd planned to eat spaghetti for supper.  It's was good day for my diet.

Plan for today: Write! Write on story. Write a poem.

How did y'all do the first few days of ROW80?

Me and My Nails Day 7 OctPoWriMo

All day I've been asking myself what story about me do I want to share with you? Today's Poetry Prompt is The Power of Narrative Poetry and Ms. Scott talked about her winning two story slams. So Cool!
 So for poem I writing it right now "live" and imagaining I'm at a story or poetry slam and all I know it I'm talking about today and my nails.

Me and My Nails

Hi I'm the girl more tomboy then girly girl,

Little I wore jeans and big shirt no dress for me.

Wouldn't touch one with 9' pole, expected Easter.

That was me more tomboy then girly girl.

But then met a boy no no not that kind...

Gay boy who noticed how she dressed.

Changed her dress and make up, more fashionista.

Now I wear dresses and cute tops but still wear jeans.

But life happened, and I needed a bright spot

One day picked a color for my nails

pink like cotton candy, happy times, fun times.

A bright happy color right there on her hands.

Today at make up store

having a sale on these wonderful color called nail polish.

What color should I pick?

calming blues? Natural browns?

pretty pinks? Bold reds?

Picked a bold purplish red and a calming light blue.

By Annie

First Day of ROW80 Goals (Around the Words in 80 Days)

Writing a lonely act. It helped to have people around who support you, even if it's on the internet like the site for the writing challenge called Around the Words in 80. I'm grateful for these other writers. It's the first day of this challenge and it couldn't have come at a better time. I need some encouragement. I haven't written anything on my story in a week.  If you read this blog then you know I've written some poetry but nothing else.

• Writing Goals
• Write every day.
• Contiue to write a poem at day.
• Post poems and ROW80 check in posts.

My goal for this week is simple write something every day and post..  I hope to build up to the word count daily goal of 500 words. I want to have the first 25% written by the end of the month. I have a bunch of scattered scenes written and have reached the first 10% mark.

Health goals

• Lose 5 pounds

I want to make it a habit to go to the gym 3 days a week, and by the end of the month be going 5 days a week. I need to lose 5 pounds. (First weight lose goal marker) I try to tell myself that I really only want to be healthy and not worry about the extra weight.  Still I really want to lose the extra weight I just want to lose it and still eat my bread too. Eating goal limit my bread and sweets. That mean stop eating cookies with my church college group. I still going to Monday's night Cookies and Compline just not eating the cookies. 

Butterflies in Me Day 6 OctPoWriMo

Butterflies in Me

Next

The Future

Sleeping Beauty Stage

Dreaming When Will I Wake Up?

The Tunnel No Light at End

Maybe I'll Write?

Nanny?

Wait.

Eyes

Toward Me

Expected to Speak

Blush, Wish Earth Swallow

Disappear Blend in Wall

Must Speak Right Now

More Wallflower

Smile.

Crush

Draw Closer

Throat Heart Throbbing

Rest of Body Frozen Solid

Tongue Rooted Top Mouth

Finally Eyes Met

He Walk By

Lost

By Annie

I'm a Young Woman Who Day 5 OctPoWriMo

The Poetry Prompt challenge for today was write a list poem with the started I'm a woman who.... well I read Sincerely, Aishah's Poem and she started with "I'm a young woman who" so since I'm a young woman too, I stole the line from her poem I hope she doesn't mind. 

I'm a young woman who hopes the 30's are indeed the new 20's.

I'm a young woman who quiet and wait and watches like a spider (only I'm harmless).

I'm a young woman who prays for healing - come I'll pray for you.

I'm a young woman who born with hearing lost prays to hear the birds sing every day.

I'm a young woman who believe in true love but yet to find hers.

I'm a young woman who want a man (not a boy) who will stand by her side.

I'm a young woman who willing to stand alone as long as she has God.

I'm a young woman who love the power of God, the true  and real "magic" of the world. (In Jesus' name I pray)

I'm a young woman who loves books.

I'm a young woman who has...needs to write. (It's burned on my heart)

I'm a young woman who doesn't realize how blunt her tongue.

I'm a young woman who still discovering her passions.  

Gentle Day 4 OctPoWriMo

Oh, how I wish my dreams

would come on a gentle breeze

I lay in bed and want to scream

Sometimes I think the angels of fate teases

Or maybe it's the muses that teases

Please be gentle to me for I'm a writer

I need to write the visions I see

fingers on keyboard I pull an all nighter.

Oh, True Love, be gentle to my heart

where are you? Where's Cupid's arrow?

When will love journey long start?

I guess I'll meet him some tomorrow.

Go told me to go straight and my path is narrow.

~Annie

Bold Butterfly OctPoWriMo Day 3

The prompt today is what was our first poem or what made us love poetry?

Well I don't know if this was my first poem but it's the poem that made me realized I had something to say with poetry. 

Bold Butterfly

A high school Junior I wrote a Shakespearean poem,

in creative writing class about swimming a race.

How I shot into the water, lived the moment.

In that moment I loved the chase.

Not the fastest swimmer, I loved

the feeling of the water treading alone my body,

the butterfly, oh how I remember thee, my beloved.

Modest in life, there I was bold, even in a swimsuit, oddy.

That was what I wrote a while ago in another being,

The me now and the me then would be disagreeing.

In high school I was on the local swim team, but I didn't join until later, most of my teammates had been on the team from a young age.  While I loved swimming since I was 7 I didn't discover the swim team until I was a teenager. My favorite stoke was the butterfly, one of the hardest stoke in swimming but I loved it. Also I was one of the better swimmers on my team in that stoke.  So one day in creative writing class it's what I wrote about and since I shared something about me, my teacher liked it.

~Annie

Fat Burn! OctPoWriMo

Hello I came up with my poem for today while at the gym this morning.

Fat burn!

As I

On the

Treadmill

Praised God.

Fat burn!

As I

Sang of

Amazing

Love - God

Turned my

5'5 frame

Long and lean.

[Turned out my poetry was hiding at the gym. ;) ]

If you like to learn more to to join me and others as we write a poem everyday of October. 31 poems 31 days! check out the blog as this link OctPoWriMo.

From this Moment i'll be happy

from this Moment i'll be happy.

i tell myself.

It's a new hour, It's NEW!

i tell myself.

"It's a new Day" on repeat.

But it only MonDay.

Maybe I'll watch Castle

or Downton Abbey! 

(on DVD)

(Yeah I know I posted this on Tuesday)

[Bend the rules I say. BEND! Oh... I broke that one]

~Annie

October's Challenges

It's October and I have three different challenges.

First challenge is a writing challenge called October Poetry Writing Month also known as OctPoWriMo. I will be writing a piece of poetry every day of this month.  In fact I'll post a piece later. Click the link to learn more on the OctPoWriMo's blog.  Love for you to join and write with me.

Second challenge is called 90 days of positive thinking or look like Charlize Theron (Family joke I think it started when Daddy asked Mama who she like to look like. Her answer Charlize Thorne from the Dior commercial. Now there a picture of Charlize on our refrigerator. This challenge is a lose weight challenge with positive thinking (with the help of exercise and a better diet).  I will be posting about living healthier. Recipes of the food I'm trying and love and exercise routine I'm working on. Today is day 5.

Third Challenge is another writing challenge called Around the word in 80 days that will start on the 7th and end on the December 26.  This challenge is for the writer with a life ;).  I think it a good writing challenge for learning to live a writer's life, more important your writer's life.  We all have to write around life, work, children, husband/wife and the events that pop in out of nowhere. You picked your own writing goals, whether it's a word count or amount of time to write, you get to pick a measurable goal. Check in twice a week on Wednesday and Sunday.  For information click this link ROW80.